Sometimes you can't help but wonder why everything in your life has happened the way it has. Why has God placed every individual that is in our lives, in our lives? And why do we spend so much time wishing we were someone else, when our own story can be more remarkable than we think? Why do the people you invest in the most seem to be the ones that don't want your love? Why and how do our bodies just continue to function without any conscious prompt from ourselves?
The questions could go on forever. We as humans will always try to understand but we never fully will. Not in this reality, this plane, this existence. We'll never fully explain the true depth of those feelings, never entirely explain the darkest corners, the brightest expanses, the most microscopic places, the most enormous spaces.
We can explain shadows, we see shadows, we experience shadows. they are only shadows.
every glorious moment, every stupid heady drug rush, every butterfly in your acid-filled stomach, every disgustingly beautiful crunch in the disintegrating gravel, every droning aural experience.
They are shadows.
But one day i will find myself on the safest ledge, and I'll know.
The questions will all be answered in full. There will be no shadows as far as i know. and there will be light. And the light will be true, warm, comforting, lovely, cradling.
"could you be happy to fall like a stone, if you'd land right here safe in my arms?"
