what do others have that i do not?
why does what i create escape?
do i effect?
is it enough?
have i nothing behind my ideas?
is it wrong to wish attention?
is it worthy of attention?
do others feel lost?
why do those called "friend" exist so far?
new heart shadow
I will never be famous.
Saturday, October 15, 2016
Tuesday, February 16, 2016
the lilting grounds
new land and new deals
fucked the source
the fold it falters
like the roof
leaking well spring poetry
winds and feeling wells
your folly will frame you
empty and ready for death
damned like the rest
carelessly forever
please take me
get me out
and off to the stones
the water's edge and depths
to be alone
to feel safety
for once god
safety
fucked the source
the fold it falters
like the roof
leaking well spring poetry
winds and feeling wells
your folly will frame you
empty and ready for death
damned like the rest
carelessly forever
please take me
get me out
and off to the stones
the water's edge and depths
to be alone
to feel safety
for once god
safety
Tuesday, October 20, 2015
some old country
baby I've been reft and
safety is no option
I've been left alone
Will I put too much
on your mind
falling doubt
will you ever try
rue my flesh
keep treading ground
sorrow becomes my strength
safety is no option
I've been left alone
Will I put too much
on your mind
falling doubt
will you ever try
rue my flesh
keep treading ground
sorrow becomes my strength
Tuesday, August 4, 2015
now on and on and on and on and on and on til the next time
Were we ever meant to see so much beauty?
this much?
i don't think so
while our fingers curl
that window beyond
into our whims
you can crush
you can steal
you can hurt
you can spin
you can lust
you can yearn
you can search
and can too much beauty corrupt the mind?
for I know that it has weakened mine
and what is not is too much
flight back to the old haunt
jammed up with doubt
keep that folly:
I DIDN'T FAIL
I D I D N O T F A I L
but parched and flushed
folding quick
resolute i might be
for a change i'm losing
SHOULD NOT BE AGONIZING
FLURRYING AROUND
WRING MY HANDS
CRAWL OUT THE END
fucked in my ways of making
go on, go on, go on and see
drops heavy
drink thickness
brunt of the blow
this much?
i don't think so
while our fingers curl
that window beyond
into our whims
you can crush
you can steal
you can hurt
you can spin
you can lust
you can yearn
you can search
and can too much beauty corrupt the mind?
for I know that it has weakened mine
and what is not is too much
flight back to the old haunt
jammed up with doubt
keep that folly:
I DIDN'T FAIL
I D I D N O T F A I L
but parched and flushed
folding quick
resolute i might be
for a change i'm losing
SHOULD NOT BE AGONIZING
FLURRYING AROUND
WRING MY HANDS
CRAWL OUT THE END
fucked in my ways of making
go on, go on, go on and see
drops heavy
drink thickness
brunt of the blow
Saturday, July 4, 2015
Midwest/Morning Pipe Dream
In the hope of the morning
I still long for another body
to be entwined and enchanted
with more than the idea
Then follow me down
a Midwest pipe dream
where nothing ever happens
like quiet spaces aching for sound -
To find the musk of an old chapel
and the dusk in late fall
some house on the outskirts, perhaps
with the wind filling the air with music
And with heavy sospiri
waking from the daydream
2000 miles backwards, i sit
against the heat
and in the warmth of the morning
I still long for another body
a touching, tangible being
transcending the idea
Wednesday, December 31, 2014
a lone way
Without my friends
I feel as though passing slowly
through some void,
I have forgotten light
Even though the sun burns
with less and less heat
It shows me the mountains
but they feel unattainable
Eyes glued to the screens
whether active or inactive
my retinas start to burn
like the aforementioned sun
Progress tries to blossom
and progress does become a bud
but nothing more than that
and later, the insomnia returns
come back, just come back
I had never realised
how much I needed your voices
to carry me through
and now darkness will swiftly
sweep me into a state of null
and the old ache will murmur
as I drift into sleep
I feel as though passing slowly
through some void,
I have forgotten light
Even though the sun burns
with less and less heat
It shows me the mountains
but they feel unattainable
Eyes glued to the screens
whether active or inactive
my retinas start to burn
like the aforementioned sun
Progress tries to blossom
and progress does become a bud
but nothing more than that
and later, the insomnia returns
come back, just come back
I had never realised
how much I needed your voices
to carry me through
and now darkness will swiftly
sweep me into a state of null
and the old ache will murmur
as I drift into sleep
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
Autumn Leaves Us
my body fails me every two months
like frozen blades of grass
that snap and regrow
and my ten toes
wiggle and chill
and my ten fingers
folding out my hands
to reach for another
and in these days
i am grateful that hot summer
is gone and done
and i'll never have to live it again
so why do i feel like this?
To find out, I'll read another page
in my stack of heavy books
and try and prove my worth
as if it could be proven
by marks on a page
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